Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Fallen



OK, so you may think I have fallen off the face of the earth. It's someone true. Things in life tend to take you by surprise and that about sums up the year of 2008 for me.

You know how when you think you know a person, you know the way they think, the way they act, you even know their very heart. When the world itself tends to revolve around the very fact that this person is this way. Then, you find out that person is not that way, and they do something so shocking it knocks your world out of orbit and you spiral into the realm of the unknown. Well, that is what has happened in my world. Sound overly dramatic? Well, hello??? What else would you expect from me?

Trust is such a hard thing to rebuild. Once it has been shattered, what do you do? I have been trying to rebuild the lace threads of trust in my relationship. It is darn near impossible. I have a bolt of fine alpaca lace weight (fingering weight) yarn that is crazy cool. It is so very fine and yummy to touch, the problem is, it's so fine, to put it into a skein to paint is a nightmare! Every time I go to put it on my swift it breaks. It is so delicate, it is ridiculous.

This is how I feel like trust is. My trust has been broken, repeatedly! So, now, just like that fine cone of yummy yarn, my trust sits in a cabinet for me to admire, but not to release. It stays bound up and completely useless for the world.

To start to rebuild trust, like that yarn, I have to let a tiny bit out at a time and then watch the skein grow. Slowly, and hopefully soon, the trust will rebuild into a beautiful skein ready to paint and show to the world. But for now, it goes to slowly to share. So, I sit, and do not blog, and do not paint yarn, and do not spin yarn, and do nothing. Bleh...I am pretty tired of doing nothing. It's about time I dive back into my work, it could be the very thing that helps get my world back on orbit.



Trust Life 3, 4x4 original collage print, ready to hang....for sale on ETSY by
alteredgirl. CLICK HERE to check it out.

Until my next post...which better be soon!!! Happy crafting! ♥

3 comments:

Sunny said...

I'm so sorry. I've been in the pits like that before and even when it feels completely impossible digging back into life always makes it better.

jeanetta said...

I'm so glad your posting again hopefully you will continue. I can't tell you how good it was to see you felting that soap the other week. Babysteps hun its all about babysteps. I hope your crew is feeling better soon. Give us a yell. we love you and keep you in our prayers. :)

Ekio Locatiare said...

Missed you!! I'm sorry to hear things have been tough lately. I know how hard it is when you get into that sort of feeling to get out of it.

It's amazing how much life can throw at you, but remember, your only one person. Friends and family are a great support network, and when that portion of your network gets fractured its tough, but the other people in that network are there still, they love to help and love to be the shoulder.

*Hugs*